Again I find myself in this state of depression. Not a depression of life, my job, friends, or of home problems; its the depression of sinning over and over, knowing its wrong, but not being able to stop... Let me start of with a little bit about myself.. Im 18 years old. Graduated valedictorian of my class. I love to play guitar and just about any other instrument. I have been playing soccer since I could walk. I plan on studying Education with double major/minors in Youth ministry and Athletic Coaching. The first time I looked at porn, I was eight years old. My friend spent the night and we googled 'boobs' and looked at the google images that came up. From then on I found myself returning to pornographic websites constantly. First only when I was home alone or late at night, then it progressed to the point where I would watch at almost any time with anyone home. I mastered the old trick of deleting the history from your computer, iPad, or phone, but that doesn't delete the pain that this has caused me. Every single time I watch porn or masterbate, I cry out for someone to help me break through this addiction. I just got finished watching porn, and I can't take it anymore... There must be something that I can do. I can't go on with my life with this addiction. I AM GOING TO STOP! Im not doing it for me, but for my future wife, my parents, and most of all my God. I have to stop... I WILL get more into the word, I WILL visit appropriate websites, and I WILL honor my Parents, God, and my future wife. Right now marks a change in my life. I am done with porn. I've said those words so many times.. Countless times have I wept after visiting an inappropriate website because of the pain I knew that I was causing those around me. and again... I find myself in that same spot. This can't happen anymore... I stopped watching porn once for a period of a few months, but Satan is strong, and knows my weaknesses.. Pray for me, those of you reading this, for I am in an intense battle with the Evil Serpent himself. But this time is different.. This time God will be my strength. Thanks for reading.