i grew up in a christian home. accepted christ into my life when i was eight and pretty much have looked at porn since then. i never thought i would be doing this. always thought i would save sex till marriage, not quite. I've had sex with my girlfriend multiple times and look at porn frequently. i ask for god's forgiveness and believe his grace washed my sins away, i repent but i keep going round and round in this circle. since middle school. i hate it. i feel like this has gone on forever. i want to tell my girlfriend about it but i never find the strength to. i want to tell her we need to stop having sex but it feels too good to stop and I'm weak again. i ask God for strength but always fall short. i just want it to end. sometimes if i don't look at porn, ill look at Facebook. i wish i could say it hasn't taken over, but let's be real, it has. every night i think about it and pray trying to find ways not to do it but i find myself doing the same thing all the time. i can go on and on. Lord thank you for being who you are but i need to feel you and hear you. please save me from this. i don't want to fight this anymore.