Hi. Once again I looked at porn last night and masterbated. I was up early this morning and prayed for forgiveness and had a great prayer time. Within one hour, I had a shower and guesss what... I masterbated! My wife is a fantastic wife who was still in bed.. all the kids are away on different church camps and I indulged in this selfish sin. The worst is that it never feels like a bad thing until the instant I am finished, then the shame and guilt is immediate and overpowering. At this stage I refuse to despair, although that is my first response. The Lord has covered ALL my sins - past, present and future. He is Lord and one day I will be free by His grace.