I have been addicted to porn for almost 20 years. I have been in and out of ministry by choice. I am married with kids. My wife has even caught me 2 times. Things have gotten progressively worse over the last 3 years. I started visiting strip clubs and began working to see how far certain girls would go. After many trips and many close encounters finall the other night I completely messed up and ended up having sex with one of the dancers. I feel terrible. Guilty ashamed and destroyed that I have cheated on my wife and I also have an overwhelming fear that I may get an std of some kind I'm dying to talk to someone but I love my family and don't want to lose them. Someone please pray for me. That god would wipe this experience from my mind. Make me whole. Protect me and keep my marriage together