My girlfriend of almost 3 years and I broke up during the begining of April. It was one of the hardest things to go through other than having to go through a miscarriage and an ectopic pregnancy. It kills everyday knowing I would of had a daughter that would of been 2 years old this year but shes not here. I talk to her everyday and strive to do good in her name. I long to have my girlfriend back and pray for that alot. Having gone through a miscarriage and ectopic pregnancy, has made me suffer from my depression and porn use on a much larger scale. as we.we miscarried over 2 years ago so that was not why we broke up. I can't seem to turn from porn no matter how hard I try. I can go a week or more without it then BAM! out of nowhere I will end up going on it. I try to stay from porn to make me a better man of God and what my daughter would want of me. I contemplate suicide a lot as a means to get close to what would of been my daughter but I know I would end up in Hell so that helps me not do such a selfish act and also I know its wrong. My ex has seemingly moved on and I can't and don't know how to. All I am asking is for help for helping me turn away from that sinful lifestyle and for prayers from ya'll. Thank you everyone,so much.