I'm a straight man, happily married, though it's hard work, and I just can't stop visiting porn sites and cam2cam sites. It's awful. I hate myself. I have no idea how to stop doing this. I thought getting married would help. My wife knows about my porn habit but she doesn't know the extent of it and every time I indulge myself I feel it driving me further from her. We've had sexual problems in the past, some of them hers and some of them mine. We're both Christians. I'm really afraid I'm going to drive her away. I've recently graduated from plain old porn to cam2cam and just finished watching someone masturbate while she watched me do the same. It feels like the worst thing I've ever done. I can't tell you how guilty and ashamed I feel. My wife is asleep in the next room. We had a really good day together, otherwise. I don't kno what to do. I want to go live on top of a mountain somewhere with my books and my wife and never come down, never have an internet connection. never have a cell phone. Sometimes I take my smartphone into the private bathroom at work and masturbate to Tumblr porn. It's all become so easy. I'm deathly afraid I'll eventually make it to full-blown, person-to-person infidelity. I don't know what's wrong with me. I would love any kind of advice anyone has to offer.