Men - Confessions

I have been away from believer guy community all summer and I have struggled without them. Too many to times I have called my girlfriend up saying ive messed up again. This is tearing up my relationship with God and I miss joyfully shouting. This is a secret sin that is so commonly covered up for fear of embarrassment. I've always heard that keeping a dark secret is like being sick to your stomach and the only way to feel better is to throw up the sickness and confess. It will be ugly but you will feel better instantly. I want to fix my eyes on the lord. I already have x3 watch on my phone and computer but I keep turning it off when u get weak. I'm realizing my issue is with lying. I would appreciate any prayers