I am the father of four beautiful children and the best wife imaginable. Yet, I turned to porn instead of my wife when my lustful urge came to me. I alone am responsible for turning to a heartless act that started when I let myself look at images I knew would plant this seed. I have judged other men for doing this exact same thing, but I am now just like them. I am humiliated that my wife knows my secret, and that I have failed as a husband. I pray for her forgiveness and His forgiveness. I don't deserve the wonderful life I have when I am willing to throw it away for an image. I hate myself right now and want to turn to God right now, but I feel hollow. I feel lost and like a hypocrite. Please, Lord, help me get through this addiction and the broken trust with my wife. Please have grace on me.