Men - Confessions

I've been looking at porn since 2005, and have memories of seeing such material in childhood. I've tried for a while to stop on my own, after infecting my Grandmother's pc with porn related viruses twice, and being scolded by my family, but I still slip from time to time. I'm in a relationship now in college, and I was glad when I learned my girlfriend did not approve of such activities, and I thought this would help. Tell me why a day ago I returned to watching porn, not just anything, my favorites dug up from memory? I knew that in effort to help me stop my girlfriend warned that I would not see her on the days I watched porn, so I told her, and the last thing she told me was, "Tell me when you're done watching porn." So I finally downloaded the x3watch program and included her email in the list. I want to prove that she means more to me than a ton of fake "love" scenes on the internet. I know the porn cant be real or compare to real love but I need help to quit. I just hope it's not too late.