Hello, I am 20 years old have been struggling with porn addiction since I was 9 years old, it started with fantasizing and masturbation, then quickly turned to pornography addiction when we got our first home computer with internet access, my cousin showed me the sites to go to and it all became so easy after that But I guess I should tell you that I was molested by older boys when I was younger, I felt so scared and out of control during those times and when I found porn it became so easy for me to get so caught upo in the feeling of control that I couldn't stop. But when I turned 15 I was able to stop for a year, then it came back when I got my ipod and it had internet acces, a little voice told me "noone will ever know" and I gave in.. I fought the batlle off and on for 4 years and managed to stop again when I turned 19, then it came back, HARD. Now my fiance has left me and she is taking our children from me, I am so scared and depressed, the addiction never even made feel good, it just nade me feel strong for a few seconds then I would feel disgusted and lost, now I have lost everything to this illness that just seems to get stronger the more I try to stop... I know GOD and I have turned to him thousands of times then I would turn back around and return to porn, I don't know what to do, I need help, I hated hurting my fiance and my children, but I was hurting GOD too. I am lost and am trying desperately to be found, I even almost looked at porn just a couple of hours ago, but something told to go to this site, so here I am. Seeking help and guidance, can anybody help me?