My name is Steve and I'm 18 years old. I've been struggling with an addiction to pornography since I was 14. I keep going through these phases where I try and turn away from this sin and repent, but I still find myself back in front of a computer screen or my ipod looking at this kind of stuff. I'm constantly beating myself up for going back to where I was and telling myself that God isn't going to forgive me for what I did. And what makes this whole situation worse is that I'm constantly struggling with my Faith due to the fact that I'm hard of hearing and I have recently discovered that my vision is deteriorating. I know that God wants to use me in so many ways as He has made me to be used to glorify Him, but I feel so lost. I'm going to be 19 in November and yet I still struggle with this. I've tried to read Scripture looking for advice and guidance but due to my vision, it's rather hard. I don't want to keep giving into temptation like I am but I don't know where to turn. I've tried praying about this but even for me to turn to God makes me feel dirty and unworthy of His love and Forgiveness. I just want to break free from these chains. Someone please give me advice or at least some encouragement. I really do love the Father and want to live for Him but I want to be able to give Him every little bit of me. Not just bits and pieces.