Men - Confessions

I love and adore the Lord. He gave me a 2nd life. I was in a coma for 2 weeks with spinal meningititis. I got last rights but my Lord let me live. I have been widowed since 1987. My wife commited suicide. I have NOT dated since. She cheated on me 9 times. The internet was a safe haven without dating etc. I found Safe Eyes and allowed my daughter to enter a password to block me off of all porn. It has worked.....however my thoughts have not stopped. EVERY single time I "follow through" on my thoughts I think of Jesus on the cross for my sins but it keeps happening and it drives me crazy that I let Him down. Any suggestions? PLEASE e mail me with your thoughts. God bless you for all you do X3PURE. I love you.....