I am an energetic, vibrant and joyful young man who loves God with all of his heart. Yet, I torture myself by looking at pornography and masturbating. I started masturbating at the age of 12 and I used to feel so very guilty about it. I didn't start watching porn unitl I was 19. I had stopped masturbating while I was in highschool. I thought that I had gain the victory over it. Remeber that text: Therefore let him who thinks he stands take heed lest he fall. 1Corintians 10:12. Well, that's what happened to me. While in college, I started to mastubate off and on. Then I got hooked on pornography and I've battling pornagraphy and masturbation addiction ever since. When I'm not looking at porn I am much more productive than when I am looking at it. My social life is better, I exercise better, and I am in a much better mood. Why, you might ask, would I do such a thing knowing that my life is better when I do not give in to temptation? I go to church every week and am very involved in it. I am in the very last class of my Masters Degree and I'm having a hard time concentrating as a result of my addiction. Please pray for me that I overcome this once and for all. I'm afraid that I might not be able to satisfy my wife in bed, once I find one. I'm afraid that I won't be able to have help produce a child because my sperm count will be too low. I'm afraid that I will never over come this sin. I will continue to pray for myself and for all those who struggle with addictions similar to mine.