While I personally have never been into porn per se, I've had a female foot fetish ever since I was 3 years old. I've also been masturbating ever since I was 12 years old. At first I had some sense of guilt over it, but after a year or two of doing it and trying to stop a few times, I got to where I was thinking "what's the harm in this?" I didn't learn that that is a violation of Matthew 5:27-28 until I was in college, and by then, I didn't wanna believe it, as my youth pastor in the church I grew up in (Southern Baptist) never bothered to address that issue, but now I wish that he had, as I find it nearly impossible to reach orgasm without masturbating, and it's affecting our ability to REALLY make love. Even worse, my wife suffers from depression, and the meds more or less completely sap her libido, which was a pre-existing condition that she's suffered from for years before we even met, and we'd like to be able to have children. Like I said, I've never been hooked on pornographic material per se, as I have more love and respect in my heart for the fairer sex in general than to look at that. I've always tried to be a gentleman, and in fact, I can even truthfully say that my wife and I were both virgins on our wedding night, and I've always held very strict views about sex being reserved as an expression of love between husband and wife. Yet, my foot fetish and the urge to go where there are lots of barefoot women around (pools, waterparks, outdoor concerts, etc.) has always been a bit of an obsession for me, as women who can't keep their toes still, regardless of age, have always been a huge source of arousal for me. Two years ago, in May of 2010, the Lord DEEPLY convicted me of just how wrong this is to allow myself to cave in to lust and masturbate later while thinking about what I saw, even though it doesn't come anywhere close to being legally obscene. While I have tried to stop doing this, the temptation still rears its ugly head on occasion and I can't quite seem to shake it. In fact, this morning I was thinking about going to find some such material on YouTube, but for some reason, I instead came to this website (and I'm glad I did -- small victory there, but still...). I don't know if there's anyone else at all that struggles with this same fetish that I do, but if there is, I could really use an accountability partner or two or three, preferably guys that also have a female foot fetish, because given what my particular arousal trigger is, I don't feel like I can talk to anybody at all about this. Don't get me wrong, I love the Lord with all my heart, and I so want to live my life in a way that honors and pleases Him. I love to go to church and enjoy fellowship with other believers, and I love a good testimony about what the Lord has done in people's lives. In fact, back in March of this year, I even had a hand in leading one of our nephews to Christ and out of a drug habit. Yet, the very fact that I sometimes give in to the flesh makes me question whether I'm really saved to begin with. And since what turns me on isn't even remotely obscene, I really feel like I'm in a bind here. Heck, during the summer, when most women are wearing sandals or flip-flops, I've even found myself horny in church, of all places! Even though I appear to be a man of integrity, I feel like a total HYPOCRITE! What am I supposed to do? I am literally TERRIFIED that I will go to hell over this, and I don't wanna go there! What am I supposed to do? BTW, even if I never get total victory over this in my life, one thing's for sure -- I'm going to be praying for each and every one of you guys on here. And if I do go to hell, I'll go to hell praying!