I was an elder in our church. I had thought I had survived the last time I had a bout with adultery. My wife of then 7 years forgave me and allowed me back home with some obvious restrictions and accountability. For years there were no issues. then about a year ago, I had a seed planted in my mind and boy did it grow. Kudzu has nothing on this. What started with a picture here and there, grew to joining two websites, OKCupid and Craigslist personals, to meeting women and, ultimate in my depravity, men. during this time I had completely compartmentalized my deviant activity away from the good and righteous living I was living as an elder and teacher. My wife of now 12 years and I had coordinated and planned for and prayed for a marriage retreat where i no less than shared my story and we shared our story of 'survival" all while neck deep in sin. ashamedly so, I helped other men who were dealing with issues in their marriage and gave them good counsel all the while living a lie as a second individual I had created and kept secret. Pride told me it was ok that I was a strong Christian and could defeat this. Well, my sin was found out and exposed the other day (7/2/12) and i had no choice but to confess and face what i was doing. In a moment, i lost everything. My wife of 12 years, all her trust, our marriage and the irreparable damage it brought to my precious kids. While we've kept this from them, I am separated from their presence and left more lonely than I ever have been. To date, I've deleted everything that was a lie. Owned up to my sin, confessed in the witness of godly men and plan to confess to my wife. I am staying in the Word and praying constantly for God's direction, strength and mercy on me, my wife, my family and kids. I'm seeking Christian counseling and am completely humbled. i simply don't know where to go from here. Divorce is imminent. Can God work a miracle a second time???