Men - Confessions

I'm a 24 year old, straight man.
I look at gay porn.
Long story.
I can't seem to give it up.
I'm attracted to men. Don't want sex.
I'm attracted to women. Do want sex.
I want to get married some day.
I'm afraid I'll never find a wife because my addiction has screwed me up so much.
God has brought me through a lot.
My porn habit keeps me chained and confused.
I'm scared I'll stop caring.