I am so sick and tired of the chains that pornography has bound me in. I have struggled with pornography for many years now, and it gradually got worse when I went to college. I went to a very large Christian university and I had great Christian friends, but never found it within myself to admit my addiction to them. I now really regret that because I am sure one of them would have been willing to be my accountability partner. I graduated from college over a year ago now and am currently in the military and in a very stressful technical training course which makes me feel mentally exhausted more often than not. The exhaustion and stress that I have felt because of the huge amount of work that I have had to do thus far has led me to make myself feel better by turning to pornography at the end of my day even more so than I had in the past. I grew up in a strong Christian home and have always been very determined to live my life in a God honoring way, although I know I don't read God's word enough by any means which I know I need to work on. I am 24 years old now and am single, which I believe is part of the reason I turn to pornography as well. I have never had a girlfriend although I have been on a few dates, but I know I have a deep desire for a Godly wife and the desire for a sexual connection is greater than it ever has been in my life. I have deep convictions and those who know me think of me as the "goody two shoes" Christian who has never drank, smoked, or had sex. I am fortunate to never had a desire to drink alcohol or smoke so those have never been addictions I have had to worry about, however, porn is the single greatest sin struggle I have ever had to deal with in my life and I WANT IT TO END! If anyone has any recommendations of things I can do to help myself relax that don't include porn I am all ears. If anyone can offer me any help or advice at all I would greatly appreciate it! Thank you and God Bless!