My first real encounter with sexually explicit sites came when i was 10... that's right, 10... and I'm 22 now and still having trouble with my thoughts. I want to make something clear hear though, I was raised in a Christian home and I had accepted God as my Lord and Savior 3 years prior to this. It wasn't even deliberate, I was just playing a game online when a pop-up filled the screen. As soon as I realized what it was, I closed it immediately, but the damage was already done. The image burned in my memory and it made me want to know more about what I'd seen. I didn't act on it for a while (maybe a couple weeks). I knew it was wrong, but I wanted to see more anyway. A couple weeks later, I made the conscious decision to go to a pornographic site... and so began my descent into darkness. The following months were spent hiding my dark tendencies from my parents... and in quite a few instances lying to them outright. Finally, after lying to them for so long, I believe the Lord convicted me one night because I couldn't sleep. I went to the living room and turned on a popular Christian radio station and thought and prayed... and made the determination to tell my parents about it the following morning... which I did. Needless to say, there were many tears, and I lost my parents trust for a LONG time. It took many years but I finally got it back... the problem is, I have fallen many times since that and gotten away with it. On top of all of this, my thought life is a wreck to this day. I'm coming out with this now because I want to be held accountable for my actions/thoughts. I want help. I don't want to be a slave to sex sin anymore. I want to be part of a Christian men's accountability group and really turn my life around. I'm still a Christian, but a very lousy one and I don't want to be that anymore.