Men - Confessions

I'm tired of giving into porn. I don't want my parents to catch me again it breaks my heart thinking about it. I feel like I've lost my relationship I had with God the very man who saved my life when I was born and told my parents I was going to be someone in life. I feel lost and cold-hearten to the things that used to bring me joy like Music and even my education. I pray and pray each and everyday that God will magically clean my heart but I feel like it's not working. I've even confessed on the resurgence blog but still I manage to fail. Like most the guys on this website I'm looking for a way out with God to clean my heart, mind and soul and bring back the happiness into my life. People always tell me that I'll be somebody but I keep wasting my life away on sites(mainly on Tumblr, I'm too scared to go to real sites, I admited it). Please someone out there please tell me what too do I'm sick and tired of doing this every time it happens. It's 12:01 Am Central time in south Texas I declare that God will do something tonight please send me a message or a prayer I want to walk right with God!!!