Every. single . time. *Sigh* No matter what steps I take practically in my addiction to self gradification and porn, every measure, I slip to the void. Each time I take a step closer to walk further from the edge and closer to Christ... When I feel tempted, I hear Him yell to me "Flee!!" I take stride, and I can't even run a week without crashing & caving in. This leads me to doubt my salvation, His Promises, my victory over this in Him. Lord, You know my heart! Here my cry to You and help me resist the temptation of unbelief. My heart KNOWS better, as does my mind. Not only do I KNOW, my desire is to be free of this bondage. I grieve over the emptiness where you lived and since left once I give in to my sin. I grieve my death by my own hand. Am I Yours Lord? Your son cries out to You. E Please, Set Me Free.