Spouses - Confessions
Well giving up porn was probably 'too easy' at least outward porn was. What I mean by outward porn is the stuff we look at: magazines, videos, celebrities, etc. My confession is my imagination. Yes I was exposed to sex magazines at a very early age, sex crazed kid that hurried up and did it when I was 16 cause I just knew I was supposed to, countless sexual sin throughout my first marriage til it ended and now I'm in my 2nd marriage. We didn't start out on the right foot but we're both learning and growing. I may be slightly more spiritually mature or so she thinks but it's like I'm perpetually 15 years old again. While she has sex issues that she didn't have before we were married and doing wrong it's like I want the slutty girlfriend stuff back with all the purity in the day of my loving wife. I know I'll never physically cheat but I like to talk about it, text, etc and honestly I'm just sick of doing it. Not sick as in I'm bored and I'm ready to throw my soul and marriage to the wind but it's just freaking wrong and I'm really eager to just stop it altogether. I know it's corny sounding but if God would borrow a neuralizer from the MIB movies and just remove this stuff from my brain that'd be awesome. Let my text buddies think my other self lost the phone/email or whatever this has got to go!