I just got married five months ago. I used to be addicted to porn, and my wife knows that full well. She's forgiven me for it, and even walked with me through some slip-ups while we were dating. A few weeks ago I watched a dirty movie and masterbated while in the bed right next to her! I feel wretched; I usually confess to her and others about my struggles, but this time feels different, since I'm married. I'm afraid that someone will accuse me of cheating on her. Weird thing is, the guilt is making me want to love her even more, so it seems like a quasi good thing. Some people have said that you shouldn't always confess to your wife, for fear of insecurity, and I want to believe that. But truth is I don't know what to believe. I needed to get it out somewhere, here seemed like a good start.