I'm goin to be honest here I hate myself and my life. I discovered porn when I was in the 4th. I found it out when I was my parents room looking for clothes and I came across a book. When I looked inside I saw how to masterbait. I thought to myself I looks cool and that's where it all started. About 7 years later I'm in high school now. My addiction to porn has grown out of control. I can't go a minute without thinking abou porn. I've already had to pregenancey scares and I'm not even 18 yet. But, I wear a mask in church and in my room. People in my church tells me I love my faith and how I turn to God about everything. But I kept asking myself why are these people looking up to me? Why? Why? That's the only thing I can ask myself. Don't they see I'm hurting or is it just the mask they see? The Lord loves us he died for us and I'm still trying to change that in my life (the porn problem).