Students Confessions

When i was 13 i first found out about porn through my older brothers, i was hooked but after awhile i stopped and it seemed pretty easy for a so called "addiction".
Now i am 17 and it has come back, i always stayed away from movies, tv shows, and games that seemed bad for me, but i found out about masturbation and it had me hooked. Then i craved even more while i did such an unsightly deed, so i went towards pornography and the women i see in my life i cant even feel natural around them, i feel ashamed and guilty just as i should. I cant tell my parents cause they r super strict and will most likely yell at me. Im past the phase where i think im getting away with it and i want it to stop, i have been trying for about a month now and keep failing. so you got any suggestions ill take anything.