I've been wanting to find some way to block porn from my laptop so that it's more difficult for me to find it, then it might be easier to quit. But everything costs money, and I don't have money. I've thought about taking my Mom's credit card to pay for it but I could never do that to her, besides we're tight on money and I don't want to take that from her to use it on myself.
Then I thought that maybe if I just told her she would get it for me to help me. Only I don't know how I tell her. Everytime something along the lines of sex or porn randomly comes up at home I think about it again and I wonder if I should tell her. But I don't know how. Today she came home and she was telling us about a teenage boy she's working with at her job who mentioned that he watches it. And from her reaction I feel like she'd be disappointed in me if I tell her. It doesn't help that my sister is little Miss Perfect, especially when it comes to church and her faith.
I know I should tell my mom because I know she can help me but I'm scared. I don't know what she'll think, or how she'll react. And I'm afraid she might just take my electronic devices away instead, but I need my computer to write my novels. What am I supposed to do? I'm so lost and confused, and every time I do it I just feel worse.