I keep telling myself after every video, "this is the last one, i'm never watching another video again." But, it just feels like an outlet to get away from everything. Afterwards I feel so ashamed, and empty. It eats away at me so much. I keep telling myself, "i'm a teenage male, it's natural ". But, when it becomes an every other day habit it is no longer normal. I feel like I have no self control. I pray to have the strength to quit but I only go a few days before i'm all alone in my room and it just happens. I need a way out, I need an escape from this emotional and mental prison.