I'm a 17 year old. I've been addicted to masturbation since about age 12 or 13. I've hated it ever since. About two years ago (I actually remember the date - 10/10/10), I was saved by Jesus Christ, but the masturbation hasn't left. I know it's a sin, and I know the bible says it's wrong, so whatever the bible says, I do. But I can't stop! This sin is unrepentant! No matter how hard I try, I go DAY by DAY and NIGHT BY NIGHT stuck in this HIDEOUS cycle!!! I'll do good for a few weeks, then one day it'll hit me out of nowhere and I'll be stuck doing it several more weeks. I've even tried (since it only attacks me at night) sleeping while holding my bible. This worked... ...at first. Satan's minions must really be trying hard to destroy me, because even now I'm stuck in this GARBAGE! I NEED to get out! I NEED IT! When I stumble across verses like Hebrews 13:4 (KJV) "Marriage is honourable in all, and the bed undefiled: but whoremongers and adulterers God will judge." I even question my very salvation. It's not that I don't believe in God, it's that I'm trampling all over the blood of Jesus with unrepentant sin! I'm an adulterer! I'm stuck in this evil piece of filth and I want OUT! I've confessed this problem countless times to my parents and my pastor. I've given up on that about a week ago. They must be ashamed of me! I'm an evil, despicable human being. Or, at least, that's how I've discovered myself to be.
