It is kinda funny how I decided to masturbate constantly in a day after I was doing well. Yeah... I did it a couple of times within these past to days. I'm feeling quite horrible right now. My day hasn't been very productive either due to some problems with one of my college deans. Well, thats another story. Nothing to do with my sexual behavior. It's just that when I get mad, after a while I usually get the urges to masturbate. It sounds stupid but I've noticed that unconsciously I tend to liberate stress that way. I've been fighting (or so I think) with inappropriate sexual behavior for a couple of years now. What effects me most is porn and sexy friends. I don't need much to start up my imagination although I'm very discrite with it. I have grown tired of this game. I've told close friends about my problem and I have searched for help but I guess this is a longer process than what I expected. It really frustrates me having to deal with this. Anyhow I still have faith. Hopefully I'll be able to help others who are struggling with this in a near future. In the meanwhile I really need to learn how to give importance to this issue. If I don't give it the right attention then I'll never be able to keep it under my feet. Carelessness has gotten a grip on me. At least in that I really need help. I'm afraid to hit the flor one day.