I'm a PK (pastor kid) I love God and want to serve him in everything I do but the last few years I have watched porn and masturbated so many times I have lost count... I don't know how to stop, I would tell my dad but he always says "if a leader in the church can't lead his own family he shouldn't be leading he church" so if I tell him he would probably stop being a pastor and I now God needs him for so much more in him ministry! how do I stop??? I feel horrible about myself and want nothing more then to love God. I just need to stop!!!! I really hate myself right now.