Teens - Confessions

well i have struggled with my addiction to porn everysince i was like 13. it was introduced to me by a family member. at the time i didnt kno it was bad and i jus kept doin it and doin it until i found out that it is a sin. every since then ive struggled with it. it causes me to be depressed all the time and it makes me feel insecure about myself. and the main problem is that it is keeping me away from god. i grew up goin to church and ive always had the desire to be a youth paster. this addiction has made me feel like im no good in gods eyes bc i am always watching porn or having sex with my girlfriend which is another problem. one min im trying to pray to god and ask him to come into my life and heart and to forgive me and then right after i get tempted and im glued to the screen watching porn again. ive have tried talking to youth pasters and frineds and even praying about it but i cant seem to win this battle! i need to win bc i have a gf who i love with all my heart who i want to marry but i want her to kno that sex isnt want i want this relationship to be about. want her to kno that i love her for who she is and not bc she has sex with me. i want to get this out of my life bc i want to have a personal relationship with jesus and i kno until i get rid of this i cant. i need help and this is me taken a final stand!