I have Been a Christian for about seven years. I grew up in church. I'm practically famous at mine. Everyone knows me. I love God. He's my everything.ive been masturbating for about a year now just because it feels good. I HATE it. I want it to die in a hole. It sucks. Each time after I'm done, I feel extremely guilty and promise myself I will stop. But I keep finding myself doing it every time. And a lot of times before I start I think about God and whether he wants me to doi this or not. But then a little imp appears on my shoulder and says, "Who cares? It feels good." I need to stop and I want to stop but I can't. I need help.