I'm now a 19 year old guy. I started masturbating when I was 14 or so. I didn't even know what it was at the time, but I always felt such shame when I did it. Over time, I started to look for anything I could that would make the experience more enjoyable. That happened to be porn, which started small - just pictures at the back of the TV guide - but escalated to unthinkably disgusting stuff online. I've always gone to church, but I never felt truly free. Only last year did I discover the true freedom Christ brings. The only things that I found working were prayer and studying the Scriptures. I still find myself being tempted every now and then, but I no longer feel like God has rejected me. 1 John 1:9 is a verse that we all need to remember: not only does He set us free, but when we fall He's ready to take us back again, just like the prodigal son. Don't let the enemy deceive you: porn is disgusting and God hates it with a passion. No amount of "good things" you do can outweigh this sin. Only the blood of Jesus can take it away. Lord Jesus, forgive us of our sins. Set us free. Show us that what you offer is infinitely better than whatever porn offers. Amen.
