I can't stop. I keep on doing it. Day after day in a mindless cold routine. I don't even need to, but it's just out of boredom and comfort that I follow my desires. I believe in God, but every time I do it, I get further and further away from Him, and now I'm almost past the point of caring, with the attitude "everyone else does it, so why shouldn't I?!" But I know this is so so wrong. God wants us to be free from this sexual sin and I need to be free. I need help though. Reading verses isn't enough and I don't even want to pray anymore. The more I do it, the more I'm caught up in this deep dark spiral of action then confession. But do I honestly mean it when I ask God for forgiveness and say I'm sorry? I don't even know anymore. I can't talk to anyone about this because my family are all so so 'spiritual' and they would probably disown me, and say I wasn't saved. I am saved and on my way to Heaven, I just need to be saved from committing this sin again. Lord, I know anything is possible with you, and I ask for your help. Forgive me.