Women - Confessions

Hi friends. I call you my friends because when I come here and read confessions, I am encouraged to keep fighting. Thanks for being open and honest. I just want to share that I have masturbated four times in the last two days. This is more than I have in years. I'm 28 and have struggled with masturbation for years. I am a missionary that usually serves overseas and I am home for a few months for home assignment. My stress level has been high and I have bee struggling to connect with God. When this happens, I start looking for relief... and I know how to give it to myself. I want to change and to offer my desires/longings/all my heart to Him. I know that is what is bringing me change... not being ashamed of my heart, but bringing all of my feelings, even when they feel "wrong" to Him. I was not really feeling like coming back to Him before I got on this site... but now I am happy to read and be encouraged to fight for the heart that Jesus loves so much. Thanks for letting me confess and thanks for what you do XXXchurch.