I am a 27 year old single woman and for the past 4 and a half years I have been struggling with porn addiction and masturbating. When I was 7 or 8 my older sister encouraged me to get naked w/ her and we would touch each other. When I was about 11 or 12 I did the same thing with my little sister. This secert has caused me much shame and guilt as it should and once I became a Christian at 14 I repented of this horrible sin and felt that God had forgiven me of it. Before my porn addiction began, I would catch a sex scence in a movie or stumble over a Showtime adult special but I would have never thought I would be in the middle of the merk and flithy sin that I am involved in now. With my porn addiction I have found that I am most attracted to lesbian porn, which makes me feel even worse about my sin b/c I know what the Bible says about hemosexuality. I have no sexual or romantic feelings toward any females in my life nor any women that I come in contact w/ but again I feel like this aspect of my sinful situation makes it even worse. I have tried to confide in some Christian girl friends about this sin that weighs down my being but after sharing this secert burden w/ 5 friends two of whom have struggled w/ the same and/or similiar things, I have found myself alone and unsupported through this struggle. This makes this unspeakable sin even harder to carry on my own. I have prayed countless times for God to deliver me from this sin but I know that I am the only person getting in the way from Him being able to do this. I want so badly to have this sin behind me but somedays it feels like I will never be done with it. In the mist of all this has been my constant battle with depression and b/c I have this sin in my life I tend to be more depressed and I hate myself more and more each day. I need major prayer and I need to find the strength to allow God to recuse me from this sin and help me to one day love myself the way God loves me in spite of my horrible sin and past.