I started masturbating ten years ago when I was in third grade. Back then and for a very long time (until sex ed. in the school) I didn't know what the feeling was, there was no lust involved because I didn't even know about sex. I've masturbated just about every day since the first day all those years ago. Once I became older the lust started to kick in due to puberty and just generally more knowledge about sex. I didn't start to follow Christ until I was in 9th grade (I just graduated high school). Because this addiction has been going on for such a long time, it's been very difficult for me to stop. I've been porn free for a month and I don't think I'll go back to that, but masturbation on it's own has always helped with the most severe menstruation cramps, even when pain killers can't help. I also cannot seem to fall asleep at night unless I masturbate, making it very difficult to quit this horrid habit. Every day I tell myself and pray that I won't do it again, then I end up awake at three in the morning, or even later than that, until I finally give in, masturbate, and then easily fall asleep. I need prayer. Please and thank you.