I am 21 years old. I feel as I have been struggling with masturbation and porn for so long. I keep saying that I will stop and that "this time is going to be the last time" but it never is. I am a leader for my church and I feel terrible. I also have a boyfriend and he doesn't know about this. I almost feel as if I am betraying him too. I feel so broken, i want to do the right things, I want to live a pure life, I want to be freed from these chains. I have an accountability partner but i don't feel as if it is helping to much. i just really want to stop. Reading all these confessions reassured me I am not the only women going through this. I feel as if everyone always speaks about males and their sexual desires but female sexual desires are kind of thrown under the bush. anyway I really feel I need help. I want to stop I'm so sick of it.