I have been adicted to this for many years. ever since my brother forced me to watch a scene with him when i was 5.... i had no idea what i was watching. but since then i cant get thigns out of my mind. I have struggled with impurity for so long. even while training to be a missionary. I can't even believe my double life sometimes... I have a boyfriend now. whom i love. but That still hasnt stopped this adiction. i hate this and I want out. can i get out without ruining my life?