My whole life, I've known that there is no greater love than that from Christ Jesus. I've been raised in a wonderful Christian home and am very involved in our church youth group. I've been on tons of retreats, I'm a teen leader for our youth group, I go to church every Sunday, I have a purity ring, I don't party, and I'm a great student. Many people look up to me for how strong I am in my faith yet I'm not strong enough to resist looking at porn at least a few times per week/month. Not a single person knows about my struggle and it scares me to death. I love Jesus so much and I have an amazing relationship with Him. He's done so much work in my life and for those around me. It breaks my heart that I can't find the strength to resist temptation. Looking at these videos is how I feel I can see what "love" looks like since I've never experienced things like that. It makes me sick to my stomach afterwards though and I feel so empty. I would give anything for this to stop but I always fall back into the same routine. I know that Jesus just wants to hold me in His arms as his daughter but I keep choosing things that don't lead me closer to His embrace. Please pray for me and my road to purity.