I thought I was through with it. I've been watching porn on and off ever since I was 7 years old. Porn messes with my mentality so bad that I think I'll lose it to the devil if I don't stop. I watched it for hours yesterday and the night before. Every since I started being celibate 2months and some ago I've been masturbating and watching porn like some maniac. I can't take it anymore. I want to quit and quit for good this time. I don't like who I am when I'm watching porn. Paranoia falls over me heavy and I get so depressed that I'm not as nice as I usually am when I'm doing it. I want to be all that I can be spiritually and I certainly can't do that if this addiction keeps having a hard fix on me. Whatever I need to do to end this and begin living life the way I should, I will.
