Women - Confessions
Hello xxxchurch.com. I have no idea if anyone will read this, but here goes nothing.. I'm 18 years old and I have a porn addiction. Yes, I admitted it, to an online community I don't know. But, that isn't the subject at matter here. I'm confessing my porn addiction today because I want to be back on good footing with the Lord. I'm currently non-religious, but I believe in Jesus Christ 100%. I'm not exactly sure when this addiction started, but I know it's been lingering in my spirit for a while. I was recently saved April 2012, where I confessed to the Lord of ALL my sins in my life. I was putting up the good fight, until just recently. It's June 2012, and the Devil caught me slipping. After I view porn and masturbate, I always feel the sense of guilt and disgust. Simply because I was the one that took a life changing step and got saved.. but, I know that all believers in Christ slip up. But, most of my life I've done nothing but slip up. I feel impure because I lost my virginity before marriage, but I asked the Lord for forgiveness from that and asked to be made "pure" again. Well.. pornography makes me feel not pure, like how some people in the Bible are depicted (i.e the people with lepracy, the cripple, and the blind guy). Plain and simple, I want to be freed from the chains the Devil made for me and be able to establish a higher relationship with God.