I have no idea how or why I started, but until I started dating my current boyfriend and have stopped having sex masturbation has seemed all the more enticing. From a young age sex has been an impact on my life. My mother would watch her soaps with us, she had an affair and many years after that were full of arguments with her boyfriend many were about their sex lives. at an early age my friend introduced me to erotic anime stories or FanFic. A guy from out class tried to have sex with me but I refused. He however moved towards my friend and raped her. Not long after i picked up my life and moved to my dads and a small town at that. i met a boy who i than slept with, but further into the relationship he started to abuse me and raped me on two accounts. after that it was down hill. But than I found God and took a better change for my life, accepted Christ and committed to purity. About two months ago I started masturbating, daily. Using porn to get that lust going. I have been open about it with my boyfriend and he tries to help as best he can. But i ask if anyone here has any ways to help me. Am I alone in this? I don't know how I got stuck on this new obsession. I just want to beat it and stop it. It still has that effect that I feel good and like I am wanted. like its the only thing I am good for.. I know I can do this. Also men, do you have any advice on how my boyfriend can help me?