I have a friend whom we struggle constantly to be pure. I love this man, and we have had sex many times. It's so hard, because I do love him. we are not married. He will text me to tell me he's horny, and I am immediately aroused. I love to know that he is thinking about me, and getting excited. I will think about this man and become very aroused, and instantly respond to him the way he knows I will. We will just act out on our impulses, and then a day or two later, he will recover himself and tell me he's a jerk. He will dive into his music, and Christian studies. I don't know how to stop my behavior! I am afraid of losing my friend.