Well im 15! Do to lack of love from my mom, i seeked love from other sources at the age of 12!! Sexual sin kills me! Every girl wants me in bed and i HATE IT!!! There is only one girl i know im supposed to be with! I know it for a fact! But how can i escape all these others girl! How can i escape masturbation!! I am called to ministry but why cant these girls back off?????? I cry to God for help and can only last about 6 days and then get slammed cause some girl says they want me BAD! aaaahhhhhhh suicide has taken in my mind but i know thats a wimp way to end this! I love a challenge! And this is pure HELL! I would give anything up for Jesus and her! But is there one way i can end all this!? God im crying for you! Help me Father! Send me an angel!!